For the past few weeks I've been taking part in Julia
Cameron’s course, The Artist’s Way. It’s a twelve week course, meant to help
you tap in, tune on, and let the creativity flow. After a year and a half
running a food business with my family and my writing becoming less and less
frequent and... well flowing... I figured it was a good idea to start.
It’s an
exciting journey. It’s a hard journey. I've still yet to take my “artist’s date”,
an outing where you are suppose to do something for yourself, something to
satisfy your inner child/artist. A coffee date, a movie alone, a bookstore
hunt, even a bath; two hours, planned ahead, scheduled and achieved. It’s made
me aware that my life is pretty jammed packed. But it’s also made me aware that
if I have 2 hours alone, I’d sooner be in front of my computer or pen and paper
writing, creating and tapping into the flow more than anything. This is my
date. I didn’t plan a babysitter, I didn’t plan what I was going to write. I
just sat here, and said “flow”.
What I am getting the most out of is the “morning pages.”; which
I’m proud to say I’m doing rather religiously. Sometimes my five year old wakes
up and sits beside me to do his “pages”, scribbles in his notebook which are
lovely, and my daughter will sometimes do some in her diary, when she gets up
in time. The idea is 3 pages, first thing or as close to as possible,
handwritten about anything. Every little niggle, every little morning fleeting
thought, every buried dream, every wishful thought, but mostly, those boring
daily doldrums that seem to be put on repeat without us even noticing it. You
know what, when you write them three days in a row you start to notice them. I’ve
noticed a lot.
So I’ve started looking for new thoughts, which suddenly means
breaking down old thought processes. Suddenly, Morning Pages are miraculous.
Suddenly Morning Pages need capitalization. Julia Cameron breaks it down that
as long as you are doing morning pages, you are doing them right. You write
them, don’t re-read them, lock them up, seal them in an envelope, burn them,
whatever feels right, or like me, write them in a notebook and never look back.
I don’t have the time, I’m too excited to move forward, to see what will come
out in the next page. I've been sorting out things, asking questions, getting
answers, Source, Universal powers, God, jumping onto the flow of words getting
me messages and nudges. Yesterday I saw an Abraham Hicks quote saying that
writing is the most focus a human can establish in physical reality, therefore
it can quickly shift vibration, suddenly through my morning pages I’m doing
visualizations, painting pictures of thoughts that make me feel good, my dream
life at the moment, stories of laughing children and stress free living.
When I started my pages four weeks ago, I struggled filling
my three pages. I felt ridiculous. I’m a writer. I write. I’m suppose to let
lose my sub-conscious and just write the thoughts, the monkey mind chatter that
is rolling by. But I’d lose focus, I’d get bored, they weren’t real thoughts.
Now, I get to the end of my third page and I wonder if I’ll just flow over to
four or five pages... but then my boy looks over, counts the pages I’ve done,
raises his eyebrows and says Mom, I’m hungry, you’re finished. Let’s have
breakfast!
I've tried this off and on and also always been amazed at how profound it is. I did it for a few weeks last year again, but stopped because I somehow ended up not doing my other journalling, which I also really need. So, I'm a bit perplexed at how to make sure I end up doing both. I really get the purpose behind the Morning Pages, but I also don't want to compromise the journalling that I DO want to go back to and read again. Any ideas as to how to figure this out?
ReplyDeletePS I think I'm going to enjoy your new Parenting Tips - the first one was great!